thinking differently

It hasn't always felt this way but I am looking forward to being back in MI this weekend. While it's giving me some anxiety...I want to go to the cemetery and I am appreciative I have friends and family that want to come along with me. I am tired of feeling this wave of sadness come over me when I enter the state of MI knowing that I won't be able to drive down to Allen Park to see my folks and into Wyandotte to see Grandpa.........but I got some great advice from my therapist about going back to MI and thinking differently; think of going home and seeing the grave, think of going home to catch up with old friends (so I set up a dinner), think of going home and seeing your Sister (I'm taking her shopping), think of going home as seeing your best friend's baby (I will stop by and visit with her), think of going home and seeing your nephew (I'll catch a soccer game).... think of the GOOD things that are STILL in MI and try to NOT focus on what isn't there anymore or it will be a viscous cycle.

And I am thrilled for tomorrow.....I was in charge of putting together a spa day for the office girls and tomorrow afternoon, I will be relaxing, while snacking on cheese and fruit, and getting a pedicure and talking to my co-workers in an outside of work setting. It will be a nice break for all of us. We all work hard, most of us are Mother's, juggling family, career and somewhat of a personal life. And it's only a few days before Mother's day so I thought it was perfect timing. Many of these women don't take time for themselves- I admire many of them- and I want to see them relax and enjoy a day away from it all.

To a good day tomorrow and to a weekend of looking at things differently.....

all my love,
Melissa