Another weekend to ourselves

So we thought last weekend was it. One last final weekend of fun dinners with friends, sleeping in late, having the house on 65 degrees, and relaxation. But, it's still just Ted, Gracie and I. 

We thought for certain she was coming yesterday possibly today... but we were wrong. 

We ended up making reservations for a nice dinner in Hyde Park Square at RED tonight. Normally, we would walk but with it being only a few degrees, we drove and parked valet (which normally, I'll save the $10...).  I love our neighborhood and the fact that with a 5 minute walk you can be at a casual bar, a really nice restaurant, shopping or an awesome local ice cream shop.  I don't think any place will ever live up to my Dad's favorite town we lived in which was Plymouth, MA. We lived a few blocks from the Ocean, this was my Dad's vacation town. Cabby Shack was his place.  But he ended up really liking this new area, just wouldn't admit he was in Ohio (Buckeye territory). Dad found his way no matter where he was. 

I had an awesome meal this evening (Filet....ended with a flour-less chocolate cake...) and Ted and I were talking as he grabbed a drink at the bar and I a club soda, how tonight would NOT be a good night for labor, considering what I just ate. Sorry, had to throw that in there. My Dad's saying right now. yuck yuck,...plugging his ears. Mom's laughing. 

These last few days have been pretty good. We're so occupied with the anticipation and arrival of the little one. It's when you stop yourself and think and look at pictures and reminisce about THEM!  They were everything to us, so special. so young, such great people. "my parents!!" What I would give to call my Mom and Dad right now... 

They would be here already. They were retired. I'd just say, "please come down". M Dad would bitch about the gas prices, then be down before I was home from work.  They were easy. 

Ted and I were talking at dinner how we're not really nervous...we're just going to "go with the flow". We both said after last year, you feel like you can make it through anything.  I wish so much we never had to experience the tragedy that we did and that my Parents were still here and that my Brother was not placed in some forensics center, but the one positive, in addition to the pregnancy, was testing my inner strength. No one knows what type of person they truly are until you face something that changes your entire life.  It honestly takes everything you have to keep going and only the strong survive. I am blessed to be one of these people. Although, I'm still figuring it out. Trust me, I am not to the point where I can 100% say and believe that, "I am so strong, I can handle anything"......you just sometimes feel that way given what you've been through. 

I pray for strength  for my Sister, Aydan and Justin too.  For Aydan only being 5, he remembers everything and still prays to them each and every night. He questions everything now about Heaven and God and I know he misses them just as we all do. I am so sorry he had to lose them too.