Well, it's time....it's time for me to head back to Michigan, to celebrate Christmas. An entirely different Christmas spent without Mom and Dad. It definitely doesn't feel the same. Wow, how so much has changed since last year. I couldn't wait for the day that it was time to head home for the Holidays. Now, it just makes me sad to think of what lies ahead in the next week. I know my Mom's Dad is dreading Christmas but he would he never say a word to us. His Patty would go with him to do all of his Christmas shopping. Grandpa even had to call me today to ask what size Aydan wore. It was almost difficult to answer him as I know it's a struggle for him to even ask me those questions as we both know we'd never even have this conversation if Mom was still here.
We'll all put our smiling faces on for Christmas Day at Aunt Kim's and we'll hug each other a little tighter, missing the sounds of their laughter and the taste of their food and mainly their presence in our lives. I must sound so repetitive, but it still seems so surreal to me that they won't be there.
I do have a lot to look forward to over the next two weeks. First off, I am so lucky my company shuts down (yeah for a privately owned family company!) for 2 weeks. We have the annual Christmas party planned for Saturday with our best pals, dinner with College girlfriends, Christmas Eve brunch at Christina and Matt's, watching Aydan open up presents, the traditional Christmas eve mass and dinner at Ted's parents with his family and our friends Mel and Nick, waking up at the Close's Christmas morning, Christmas lunch with Grandpa Olszowy, Cousin Jessica, Uncle Stan and Aunt Linda and Christmas dinner at Aunt Kim's with all of Mom's immediate family (we'll miss you Aunt Lisa!).
I probably won't get through Silent night at church (usually my favorite Christmas Carol especially when they dim the lights) without tears for my parents and my brother as he sits alone waiting for the cart to come by with his dinner. All I can do is pray for peace and have hope that the new year will bring some closure when my brother is placed and great happiness when the little one arrives.
In loving memory of my Mother and Father who are missed everyday. Merry Christmas Mommy and Dad, the first without you.........help us get through it-wow, you'll be missed. Let's remember last year.......you loved the comfy robe I got you, we surprised Dad with the flat screen TV, we made our Egg Nog Martini's Christmas evening and played cards while I belted out Christmas songs to make you laugh....
Papa and Aydan:
Mom and Missy-in our red and green
Christina and Mom at Christmas eve brunch:
Gracie the red nose bulldog
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