During a time when I always imagined you would be right by my side, a phone call a way, you are somewhere far, far, away and I'm missing you very much.
I miss your voice, smile and love for being with family. I miss how fun you were and miss your love for pictures. I miss you most during times like this, when Ted is traveling and I would normally just call you a few times a day, for no reason at all.
How sad and cheated I feel that I now have to go through life without a Mother-when our relationship was wonderful and fun and everything I could ask for, yet I also feel like a lucky girl that I had the relationship we had. I feel even more sad for you Mom-that you didn't get to live the rest of your life. You spent most of your life being a Mom and raising three children, now was time to really enjoy life.... But luckily, you had been enjoying it the entire time. When I think of the fun you and Dad had or the weekends you both would just head up north to get away or all of the times spent with us wherever we lived, I feel happy we have those memories. But they also leaving me wanting more, many more....but there's none left. I got 28 years with you and your time was up.
On Sunday I will attend my second baby shower thrown by my very sweet neighbor, friend and co-worker. How thoughtful for them to do this given the large shower I had in MI two weeks ago. I'm really looking forward to it and feel like such a lucky girl to have so many wonderful people in my life to make me feel special during this important time in my life.
You'd really be amazed Mom, you really would be.
Missing my Mommy everyday and I love you too Dad.
Your daughter
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