2 years gone by

A lot of tears were cried today as I relived this nightmare that happened to my family, my beautiful parents, two years ago.... I stayed home today. My manager was really supportive about it. I may never go into that office again on this day. I keep my spirits up at work even when I'm down but on the actual day, there's no faking it. I am 100% devastated. Every day this tragedy effects me in someway and I think about my Mom and Dad every hour. Whether it's wanting to call my Mom at work to chat, or to tell her about something new Elle has done or to call her when I am having a bad day to complain. I miss them visiting Cincinnati. It breaks my heart so much. 

I met my manager for a glass of wine and to toast my folks, I went for a run, read through the thoughtful words on facebook regarding my parents and their memory. I loved hearing from some of my Parent's friends from the lake. They knew my parents since before I was born. They are missed by so many. I thought of my brother today and how he might be facing the day. We ALL miss them terribly and it continues to be challenging facing the world without them. I feel like we're all still so young and need their guidance, even if I am 30 years old. I need my Mom and Dad and I sure know my sister and brother need them too. 

I so appreciate the words I've received, phone calls, text messages, posts on facebook, emails (even from strangers who think of my family and read this blog), and for the flowers. I also deeply thank the people out there who aren't afraid to say something and have committed to being a life long friend/family member and supporter after dealing with such a tragic loss. It's the people that continue to stick by you, not just today, and help you keep their memory alive is who I want to surround myself with for the rest of my life.  Yeah, you're feelings get hurt. You have expectations that will never be met but I am greatfull for the special people that have helped me get through these two years.....especially Ted and now my daughter...

 

My parents were really good people and there's a lot of people who loved them out there and I know for fact today and for many years to come,  they'll be missing my Mom and Dad. 

Today is a tough day, this week is even tougher and this month doesn't get any better....and nothing I want to do to honor their lives ever seems good enough. But I'm working on a project I will hopefully be able to share in a few months and Ted has plans later this month to start adding to my Dad's current boat dock and making it a dock where we can gather, sit and hang out, in their honor....we're doing the best we can. 

In loving memory of my amazing parents who died so tragically, so young and I continue to be heartbroken but no one can ever take the memories away that our family and friends have shared with you. You remain in our hearts every day. I love and miss you so much. 

To all of our family and friends, thanks for continuing to come along on this journey of healing with my Sister and I and remembering my Mom and Dad...always and forever. 

Melissa