Thursday, March 5, 2009

going home, or what used to be...

Tomorrow Elle and I will head to the place I used to call home, Michigan. 

Since I'm on maternity leave I mine as well take advantage of the time and go and visit with my Grandpa, introduce Elle to her great Aunts, spend time with my Sis and Aydan, catch up with some friends,  and hang out at the Close's (Gramma and Grampa's). 

It still feels weird to head home and not see my parents. Not see Justin. It just isn't right. Everyone else goes "home" to see their parents and family. It's just not fair and the emptiness that goes along with the feeling of not having parents simply stated-sucks. It's the worst feeling imaginable.

I'll always love Michigan and obviously will continue to call it home as that is where I grew up, lived all of my life, and spent most of time with my family, when we were a family. 

On a happy note, Elle is really growing. You should see her Mom and Dad, your hearts would melt.....especially when she smiles. At 6 weeks old, she is 9 lbs-5 ounces and has made it out of the "10th percentile" on to bigger and better things-the 25th percentile. Just watch me now, "says Elle".  I am going to show off your granddaughter to your families while I'm home..........and plan to visit the cemetery, although difficult-I know how important it would be to Mom. She still visited Grandma up until the year she died. Dad would say, "don't waste your time-stop crying over me". But I'll go.....and cry, cry and cry.  It wasn't suppose to be this way. 

All my love, 
your daughter always



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