Yesterday sucked. Ted and I made the drive from his parents house with Elle, through Allen Park...to visit my Grandpa in Wyandotte. Driving there instantly brought the devastation and reality back that they're gone. I hadn't cried that hard in a while. I do much worse when I'm back in Michigan but I won't stop coming here. I have to continue to face my fears. I don't plan on it ever getting easier.....it's just not possible when it happened this way. It's not possible.
I had a great time enjoying Polish Food with my Aunt from Atlanta, cousin and her husband, Grandpa, Ted and Elle but I'm always 100% aware that they're missing.
I must sound like a broken record, but it's not getting any easier being back here. It's still always on my mind at home in Cincinnati but wow is it ever multiplied here.
I am enjoying being back here for a week though. I got to surprise my friend at her 30th birthday party last night, my first night out post baby. Gramma and Grampa Close happily watched Elle Bell and I'll spend time with my Sister and Aydan and plan to shop, catch up with some friends and see more family next weekend to introduce the little one. And my buddy Auntie Ray is planning to make the trip to stay with us for the weekend-yay.
I don't know what I would do without the Close family though...........it's nice having a second place to call home now and Elle is adjusting quite nicely on our visit.
I think she wants to eat now Mom and Dad...........gotta go.............thinking of you always.......
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We love having you here with us. We have enjoyed time with the whole family Ted, Elle, you Mel and of course Gracie. Grandpa and Grandma love spending as much time as we can with Elle holding and cuddling and just watching her change so much.She discovered her hands today.That silly butterfly that keeps coming and going. Her little laughs, and very adorable cries. We love all the new experiences. I love to make everything all better, but I can't do that for you Mel and it hurts me too. We love you and will always be here for you.
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