awaiting another arrival...

I have totally accepted that he's not ready to come out. Tomorrow is Aydan's birthday, my original due date....maybe my Dad is pulling some strings up there and wants his two grandsons born on the same day or maybe the little guy just isn't ready.....we seriously are shocked that I made it this long. We just assumed I would be early. We've keept busy with Miss Elle and I continue to think I have the house ready...and then another week goes by.... and now after almost a year of health, E has a nasty cough. Perfect timing. I worry about the daycare germs while the little guy is so young....

I was reminiscing this morning...thinking back to the year leading up to Elle's arrival. It was a tough year but with so much love and celebration awaiting for her to come....I looked back through my baby shower pictures and sighed.....it was such a beautiful occasion....to look ahead at the same people that were by my side to say goodbye to my Parents were helping welcome this miracle child-blessed from heaven to the world. I will never forget finding out I was having a girl. I so needed a girl that year- she was the greatest blessing anyone could ever have asked for after such a tremendous lost. We have been so lucky to call Elle our daughter.

I think about this pregnancy and these last 40 WEEKS....another good pregnancy, happier moments, still times of great sadness yet with so many friends and my sister-in-law being pregnant at the same time, I feel I have had more support and more people to share daily struggles and joys with on a daily basis. I am really looking forward to my maternity leave this time around. I "think" I am in a better place emotionally.....I sure hope so......of course I worry but I am ready to meet this little guy....our family is ready to expand and we are prepared to take on more responsibility and cannot wait to show our Son our little life we have made... and to share with him the people we have lost and loved and to introduce him to our incredible friends and family that continue to be on this journey of healing and life with us.

When is he coming, Mom and Dad??? I pray you are watching down.

Love you.

Melissa