family

We took pictures in the park this weekend with our friends for the Holidays.....we got some adorable ones for potential Christmas cards and for family. Yet, all I would like to do is share them with my Mom. I am already stressed about the Holidays. Who will host Christmas this year? Where will we go with my Grandfather and the small group that is left? So many things have changed. Mom and Dad had been hosting Christmas dinner for 20+ years.....and I think of my Sister....Matt is working on Christmas this year and Aydan will be with his Dad on the day so I know it will be emotional for my Sister, I am hoping we can gather at her house..... She literally has no where to spend Christmas morning. It's just crazy. Well of course I will invite her over to Ted's parents home but that's not the same. We both want to be with our family too. It's so strange to not have a home to go back to for the Holidays, to show off your children to you parent's old friends, neighbors, etc. It's been a very challenging transition. I want Aydan and Elle to have speical memories with our family, Aunts, Uncles and Grandparents but I need to accept things have changed and this is our new Family but our hearts will always ache and we will do everything we can to make certain their memory lives on through both of our children.

We are so thankful we have Elle, honestly, I feel at times she is the only thing that will make the Holidays bright. She continues to amaze us with how much she is growing, talking and learning. She is just too cute. And I am thankful for great friends and in fact, one of them is coming to visit me this weekend. A great way to kick off the Holiday Season. Just wish our house was in better shape but we have a few more weeks to go.....we picked out the granite for our Island this weekend and the new fridge and stove arrive this week. Getting excited for future entertaining...

Love,

Melissa