Washington DC

A wonderful weekend with such fantastic friends and hosts. Incredible food, drinks, hanging out and sites throughout DC......I enjoyed walking around Molly and Brian's neighborhood the most in Alexandria, VA and also LOVED seeing the White house....Elle was such a great traveler and it was good to spend time and visit places with the three of us......While I continue to be saddened without my immediate family together, I am so thankful for the friendships we have and the places we continue to visit and add to the memory bank. I miss my Family so much and would have loved to share this fun visit we had with them...I would have had to get Mom a thimble and Dad a shot glass of course. Mom would have gotten a kick out of us visiting the white house and the world war II memorial. She loved this stuff.......I missed my parents badly on Sunday as we were traveling back from a great weekend. I missed my brother too. And my Grandfather, on October 16th, will have been gone for a year.... So much loss for our family and there are moments I feel overwhelmed with all of this....

And then I looked ahead and saw someone who has come into my life 6 months ago or so and has given me some hope and understanding for what I am dealing with. My therapist. She is so put together and lovely looking and when I called her name she ran over with such great excitement to actually meet my husband and daughter. She was in awe as she has heard so much about them. She continued to pat my shoulder and call me kiddo. And how much she looks forward to seeing me again soon and how it's always good to see me........she's awesome......and it allowed me to take a deep breathe as she often reminds me to do, recognize the sadness, feel it and acknowledge how badly this sucks....and then...keep going positively if I can. There will always be such waves of emotion with something this tragic and I so appreciate that she helps me understand this. It's not going away....but it's important that I don't get stuck as so many others would....and do......it's an every day fight. And I know in my heart I'll win but my life will never be the same.... I am still so lucky and grateful for so much in my life.......especially weekends such as this.