my live interview to share A Healing Heart

My interview live on Fox 2 news went exactly as I had hoped and prayed about! Almost losing it several times, I kept my composure and talked about grieving, my relationship with my Parents and how inner strength allows me to get out of bed each and every day with such significant loss. I was pleased with the questions, loved the flow of the pictures (not all were played that I submitted and felt bad my Sister wasn't in them) and thought the reporter was so incredibly sweet and sensitive. The second we went off camera, tears rolled down her cheeks, and she just continued to say how sad this was. We were a normal family and even with my brother having some mental illness, he didn't cause any big troubles or drama in our lives. It was the ultimate shock. Although I never talked about it live or even in the book, but I continue to be saddened with all my Sister saw and went through and wish I could have been there with her. I wonder where I would be today if I did see all she saw? I honestly don't think I could have handled seeing my Mother, talking to the police and walking into my childhood home with everything as they left it before they were killed. These are the toughest moments imaginable.

Who knows what's next in store for A healing heart.....but one thing is for certain, my Parents memory will always be alive in the pages of the book and now I can leave this behind for my Family. My own legacy and story to share with my loved ones. Aydan will remember some and how much he misses Gamma and Papa but sadly, Elle will only know them through me, pictures and stories but she too will get a glimpse through the book on how special they were and the meaning of unconditional love. I will miss it for the rest of my life. And no one will ever replace that love or void. I hope others will read and maybe even just for a moment will understand the deep pain and sadness one may feel after such a tremendous loss of loved ones. And maybe they will live better lives because of it and will stop sweating the small stuff and complaining about things that are not life altering. But I know this is hard, we all get caught up in our own lives. I bite my tongue.......but I am not perfect just as I walked into my house full of dust today griping why on Earth did we ever start this project. I am so sick of eating out and Miss Elle misses her steamed spinach........

I thank my friends, family, and the Close family for watching the interview, supporting the book and being together for some fun Saturday evening.......their memory lives on through all of us.

Melissa