weekend

Well, the weekend didn't exactly go as planned.....but not going to PA was probably the best decision I've made in a long time. Although, I was SO sad to not see my friend Nicky and meet BEN.

But, I have already rescheduled for a March visit and I will also very likely get to meet Mel's baby girl at the same time. PA was hit with a ton of snow, Nicky's daughter wasn't feeling well and Elle was very needy yesterday with a slight fever...teething we think. So it was a good decision that I was home for her. My brother-in-law also had to go through emergency surgery this weekend due to a ruptured intestine but we are happy to report his surgery went well.

With Elle a little off this weekend and with lots of snow on the ground, we basically stayed in all weekend other than Mexican Friday night. Ted made some great food all weekend, but I have to say this chocolate flourless cake with toasted marshmallows was my most favorite part. My Mom would be so proud...who have thought Ted would be using her spring foam pans to make amazing cakes ? 

Like I have expressed so many times throughout the past year and a half. I miss having parents. I miss that unconditional love, support and having them come down to visit. They would always make the time, all I had to do was ask and they'd come......but these are the cards I was dealt and we somehow keep on going and making it work......but it's hard to not have that support. I feel alone and I know that will never ever go away yet I still find it within me to say how lucky I was as I know there are a few people in the World that had the relationship and memories as I did with my Family but on the other hand there are also few people in the world that have lost their parents this way. But what choice do we have..what choice would anyone of us have in this situation but to keep going?