Monday, May 11, 2009

a little doll in a dress filled with lace





You were both missed at another really special celebration Mom and Dad....
As always and has been the case even more so this past year, our family was there to offer their support and love to Ted, Elle and I.
We baptized Elle on Mother's Day Sunday and it was such a special occasion. The dress Elle wore really hit home with me as I pictured both of you getting me ready when I was 6 weeks old and commenting how cute I looked in the dress. I'm curious if I was as well behaved during the service as Elle was. The dress that Aunt Lisa refurbished became my own internal theme of the baptism. Her invitations were shaped in a dress, her cake as well but really the dress stood for so much more-family traditions and a strong family bond.
It was my first Mother's Day but I didn't realize what a big deal that was until the middle of the service on Sunday. The pastor asked anyone who was celebrating their first Mother's Day to please stand. As I stood and people applauded, it was a a pretty cool feeling. "My first Mother's Day" I thought to myself, what joy and happiness I brought to you on your first Mother's day. I now know what you felt like. And seeing how heartbroken Christina and I are out without a Mother, I really know and understand the importance and impact a Mother has on their children's life in particular, their daughter's lives.

After Elle was baptized, Ted and I made our way to the front and took our seats for the remainder of the service. I would glance to the left and see our family. My Dad's Sister and Brother, my Mom's Sister and Brother, Mom's Father-Grandpa, cousins, my Sister and nephew....and I felt sad. I know it breaks their hearts to see Ted and I up there with our new baby girl and the fact that my parents are missing this. I know it makes them angry.

After the service we had everyone back to the Close's house for a Polish buffet. We rearranged the Close's dining room/formal living room to accommodate 30 people to sit down together and enjoy lunch. Elle was passed on to various family members, we ate great food and enjoyed "3" cakes from our most favorite bakery that we have been using for the last several occasions. Elle's cake was shaped like a dress, I had a Mother's day cake decorated with the names of my Mom, Ted's Mom, my Sister and I and of course, an anniversary cake for Ted and I. I printed out thank you cards acknowledging the godparents-my wonderful Sister and Ted's wonderful brother, honoring my parents and thanking Ted's parents, and all of our friends and family for attending this special day and for their continued love and support with Elle. I also wanted to thank my Aunt for keeping the christening gown in the family and for all of her hard work she put into it.

Elle looked absolutely adorable and we loved spending the time with our family and friends and showing her off. As I was hugging everyone goodbye, my Grandpa came up to me before he was about to run out the door and with watery eyes he said to me, "your parents would be so proud" and then immediately left before we both started crying. I know he keeps a lot of the pain of losing his daughter and his wonderful Son-in-law inside as for a lot of us it's so tough to come to terms with what really happened. It continues to sadden me that my entire family had to go through this. But yesterday, I was so grateful that we have such a solid, loving, supportive network of family and friends who came to simply show us how much we are all loved. We love you too. Thank you for everything...

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Wow, what a day - Elle looks beautiful.

Happy 1st Mother's Day to you!