April

Elle is getting bigger, you'd be amazed at how she changes daily. As of yesterday, she is 7 lbs 10 1/2 ounces. Still small, but that is actually big to us seeing as she was in the mid 5's when we left the hospital. 

We've been walking a lot with the Weather being nice this week. I cannot go back to full activity until my 6 week checkup so walks are all about I can do. I cannot wait to run again. The month of March should be nice here in Cincinnati so I plan to get out everyday.....I really want to enjoy this time off with her as come April 13th, I will be back to work. I really love my job so I know I can have a nice work life balance that Ted and I can manage. My career will remain an important element in my life just with Elle being the priority. 

I'm still pondering what I want to do the month of April. I want to honor my parents life the entire month. Whether its doing things they would enjoy, visiting their grave which I hate, volunteering my time, donate to the MS society, have a drink at Boomers, bake a cheesecake, take a bike ride like Dad would...nothing seems meaningful enough. Nothing I could ever do will ever be enough to show how much they were loved and are missed. Some may think, wow it's almost a year, Melissa must be doing better. But I have to admit, there is not an hour that doesn't go by that they're not thought of or what happened is not pictured in my head. You cannot block this from your memory.....when it's your parents, it's impossible. Especially when you had a relationship with them that I had. I only wish I would have said and done so much more for them. That is why I will say everything to Elle and my remaining family....I never again want to leave anything left unsaid, because you honestly never know. 

Life has shocked the hell out of me....