Our amazing friends that we have vacationed with for the last three years are all now going without the kiddies, we feel blessed our children will be safe and with Grandparents....and that we get some friend time and relaxation. I keep picturing my two girlfriends and I walking along the beach- laughing, maybe crying, but appreciating that no matter what life has brought, we are here in Jamaica together.
April is the most painful of them all and while we will be leaving Jamaica on the day of their death, I'm so thankful I will get to wake up that morning, knowing that overwhelming sense of reality will come over me, and go for one last walk on the beach. My Dad loved rocks and my Mom loved shells. I will toss a few into the Ocean and remember the way life was, our incredible memories, the fun, our childhood, holidays, and most of all that unconditional love and support my Sister and I miss every single day.
I cannot wait to be on the beach. I think of my Sister as a strong single Mom that's facing heartache, I think of my brother that is learning to now socialize and face reality of his illness, I think of my Aunt who is sick...........I almost feel guilty that I get to go on the beach. I'm still so lucky.....I have my own family who is supportive, I have amazing friends......I wish that for all my family that is hurting.....I wish I could give you time away from it all, time to breathe and take it all in as the waves come crashing in.....
3 years soon. Has it really been that long since I have seen you?
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Enjoy this vacation Lil Mel.. I know you amaze so many family, friends, and co-workers every day. Thanks for continuing to share your journey! Lot of love and positive energy to you during this difficult time.
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