new design

For the past two years I have wanted to change my design but every time I went to do it...I couldn't. I would say to myself, "why change the design? This is just a place to spill your thoughts and to share your journey both painful and joyous with your parents in Heaven, family, friends and others who knew my Mom and Dad. It's not about how it looks". But this evening, I decided I needed something new to look at each week when I log on. I remember almost three years ago next month sitting on Ted's parents couch setting up this blog. I want it to look a little different I guess. I don't know, maybe I'll end up changing it back....but for now this look is sort of peaceful and pretty....

I'm happy, mainly for my parents sake, that over 60,000 visits to this blog have taken place in almost three years. Some ended up here on accident I'm sure... but I'd like to hope most came here to reflect a little on life, take in how precious and short it really is and realize how unfair life really can be at times but that the strength in some that have the courage to go on is somewhat inspiring, I hope. But most importantly for me, through my posts, I hope the love for my Parents and constant wishing they were here is so clear and loud that even they can hear it all the way up in Heaven......and that my brother too can feel some strength shining down to get him through each day......3 years, 5 years, 20 years....this tragic event and loss has changed my life forever and I don't think there will ever be a day that I won't wake up to face they are gone but I do pray one day my faith will be restored and we'll be given a dose of peace of how they died and that each day becomes even more precious to live life and just one day closer to meeting them again.....and reuniting my family.

I hope you can hear me Mom and Dad. You are missed and loved every single day.