Daily routine

Who would have thought simple, every day tasks could one day be difficult to complete?

It's been nearly two months since everything has occurred and I have been grocery shopping one time. Ted has cooked dinner maybe twice as we've opted to eat out (we met friends for Burger madness tonight-a classic in Hyde Park square, yes at one of your favorite establishments-Aurthur's). I have not watched an ounce of TV except when flying back from St. John there were a few comedy shows on that I could watch (yes, I missed the entire Season of Grey's Anatomy which is my most favorite show in the world and Mom's too....). I couldn't imagine watching a show that shows people dying or sick. I couldn't listen to music until a few weeks ago. I am not sure what I am afraid of. Well, I mean, partially it is due to the fact that I will cry. Heck, I used to cry at commercials, sad songs and movies prior to this happening and I am only becoming an even more emotional person through this. I also have slipped on my house cleaning, which is a big one for me. You could generally eat off my wood floors, but at this point...I would recommend flip flops when walking on them. I've considered hiring a cleaning service, and even someone to do the yard work to take some of the weight off with traveling back & forth from MI and simply not having the motivation after work. But then I think of how you both would not want Ted and I spending our money on that. I actually used to love cleaning and never would have fully considered a cleaning service. It's not like I have 5 bathrooms or 3 dogs and 3 children making a huge mess. Although you would be surprised what 2 people and a Bulldog can do. And one last thing I have given up on over the last two months.....the gym. (The entire month of March, Julie and I went at least 3 times a week consistently).

I look forward to the day that going to work, working out, watching my favorite sitcoms, searching CNN, scrubbing floors, grocery shopping, organizing my drawers and catching up on laundry doesn't seem like the largest task to overcome! Tell me these are normal things and I must continue them as I did before this. And PS- your Son-in-law has not stopped working out or watching TV or doing his daily tasks. Men. How do they bounce back so quickly? Probably because they have no choice but to be strong for us girls.

Missing your smiling faces, your voice and having your non-judgemental listening ears.....how did you put up with me? I recall all of the phone calls I would place to you (sometimes even 3 x's a day) and you would actually say to me, "I knew it was you" or "now what do you want?" or "it's you again?" or "yes, Melissa?" or Dad's famous conversation, "I'm cooking dinner, what do you want? I'm busy". He was half joking, half serious but I know deep down you both loved my annoying phone calls or at least partially loved them.......