He's concerned about us.

This is the part I cannot handle, Mom and Dad. There is no manual on how one should react to this. He is concerned about us, Christina and I.

He is telling his therapist at the jail how much he needs to talk to his Sisters and he is acting very concerned about Aydan. This is someone who has not done a whole lot of communicating over the last several years, so the fact that he is talking to people with emotion, is really hard to even imagine or handle. He is coming to the realization of what has occurred. This part scares me. How am I suppose to act or feel?

I feel anger, sadness, hurt, disgust and compassion toward him. He is my brother, but he took you both away from me. Why should I come in contact with him? So he can feel better about himself that Christina and I are okay? I need you both to guide me on this one. I am really struggling to figure out what you would want. He was your Son and you loved and trusted him no matter what the situation was. I am so sorry your own child could do this, he was sick. He wasn't the baby boy you raised when he did this, please trust me on that. You did an amazing job. You loved him to the end. It wasn't your fault.

Christina and Matt brought him money today, but did not visit, no one is ready for that. He can now get snacks, phone cards, socks and toiletries. He starts medical testing soon.

He's safe for now, Mom and Dad. Your Son is safe....