This weekend was exactly what I needed......time with my Family. Although I was saddened my Sister and nephew had to cancel last minute due to the flu and snowy weather, having my Dad's Sister-my Aunt and Uncle here made me feel closer to my Dad and Grandfather and allowed me to enjoy a little of the Holiday Season. I've always been close with my Aunt. She was the go to person for advice on college, careers, moving around.....she was very close with my Mom and Dad, "my Sister" as Dad always referred to her as. When I am with my Family, I can be myself. They know the good and the bad. We laughed, we joked, we cried and we talked. She shares stories about my Dad, we talk about memories, we looked at a few pictures and shed tears and we talked about my brother. My Sister informed me a Christmas gift is coming from my brother. I am fearful and panicked as I await this gift. I know my brother misses his Family and the Holidays are especially tough. I don't want to receive this gift. I don't want it to make me even more sad thinking of him actually picking this out or ordering it through the hospital. Not only do my Sister and I have to continue to deal with this tragic loss, we still have my brother and we have to deal with things such as this. I know he is lonely, we all are yet I don't want to face it. I don't want to face his sadness too or have him sending me Christmas gifts. I'm really nervous.
Miss Elle loved having her great Aunt and Uncle here....she got to open a few presents and she surely understands gifts and opening now...we took her downtown to show her the tree, the ice rink and ended at Starbucks to sit and chat over a Peppermint mocha. We then headed back to the house for Italian night.....my Aunt is very much like my Dad and takes over the kitchen making a yummy meal. My Aunt and I did a few fun things that made me miss my Mom yet I was so thankful I had someone to do these things with...........we made homemade truffles, went Christmas shopping, talked every morning over coffee and ended every evening with cookies and milk. It was so nice to have family in our newly renovated kitchen and to have them check it out and give us decorating tips and stuff..... We miss my Family but I am blessed with people that have always been in my life... to see me on this continued journey.........now almost a Mother of two. Life has been crazy. I know how proud they would be yet I know my Mom's heart would be hurting just as much as mine....
Thank you for making this season a little brighter.
Melissa
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