After a beautiful 7 day vacation in the Keys, and a scare to the ER with Elle (more on that later), Christina and I visited the cemetery today. As if yesterday wasn't emotional enough.
Yesterday was just one of those days that I really needed my Mom. Scared, as a new Mom, I wanted "that" person to call and cry to. I continue to be shocked that I really don't have the both of you here for all of this, whether it would have been calling you from the Keys to say Hi and to say how stunning the views were or if it would have been me calling to cry because Elle was getting her first IV at the delicate age of 5 months. At 29 years old, I continue to still need my Mom and Dad.
Long story short.........7 wonderful days spent with wonderful people in the Florida Keys. We had a gorgeous beach house steps away from the Ocean. It was the perfect relaxing trip and Elle was so awesome. She took naps, slept in her crib and went down every night right at 9pm, enjoyed smiling and hanging out with her new pal Abby and adjusted so well from being away from home. The day we went to fly back home, something went wrong. Her day started out not right...a lot of crying and she felt warm which later turned into a 102 degree fever.
Elle, to this day, has never really been a "crier" so we knew by her actions, something wasn't right. We made it out of the keys into Charlotte and her condition got worse. But it was when her crying stopped and she got lethargic is how I would explain it, prompted me to get off the plane that was about to take off and call the paramedics. So perhaps I overreacted, I could not take any chances. I was so scared and instantly afraid of the worse possible scenario.
We ended up being transferred to the hospital via ambulance. As I starred at my daughter, who was actually napping, in her car seat (attached to the stretcher), I couldn't help but imagine my Mother lying there. She was alive and I suspect in very bad shape. I was looking around at all of the supplies and just thinking of the worst possible things. That day has changed my way of thinking for the rest of my life. Ambulances scare me now and I certainly did not want to be driving in with Elle this early on in life.
Many hours later, and after an IV, Catheter, and blood work.....the doctors determined Elle had an ear infection. A pretty severe one. We made it back home this morning and she has been in pretty bad pain. I pray the antibiotics kick in soon to ease her pain and bring my Elle back. I have to say, a sick child is a very scary thing and it really just breaks your heart as they are so helpless and rely on you so heavily to make them better.
We are so grateful Ted's Mom followed us back to Cincinnati today and will watch Elle for a few days so we can keep her out of daycare.
I am so relived Elle has an ear infection and hopefully her pediatrician will confirm the same thing and that in a few days, she should make a turn around.
Life still continues to throw curve balls, but one thing is for sure......we enjoyed that vacation.
Happy Birthday Dad, I miss you every day......
No comments:
Post a Comment