A pink blessing

I'm imagining in my mind right now what you would say as I called you to tell you that Ted and I found out we are having a little girl! I can just hear you and Dad when I close my eyes.

So those of you that just missed that one, we are having a GIRL! I could go on for hours on this post on the emotions, feelings, excitement that we have and also the great sadness I feel for my Parents and brother that they will miss this. The little princes or "patty cake" as my Aunt Diann has already nicknamed her, oh she will be so special.

But, I think many of you can imagine for a minute what I am feeling today. My parents passed in April and now only a few days before the 5 month anniversary of their death, I am pregnant with a girl. What are the chances I tell myself? Is this God working in his strange ways...taking away the 2 most important people in my life who are responsible for who I am today, but giving me the gift of a healthy growing little girl? I needed a girl. I love boys especially my Aydan "the future hockey star" but there is something about a cuddly little girl that is so comforting and and the thought of a girl instantly makes people's hearts just melt.

This year has taken me through the worst days of my life but when I think about telling my daughter about this one day, I can also tell her how something good came out of this year....and it was her that helped carry our sadness off our shoulders and brought us peace, hope and most importantly, faith that there is more to life after this and Gamma and Papa are watching from up above with pure happiness. I'll get to that point one day, I know I will but when you had the most loving Mother on the Earth who got so "excited" over things and was an amazing Grandmother for the past 5 years, it's hard not to feel a little sad today. She is the person I wanted to call today.

"I'm having a little girl Mom and Dad...do you believe it?" We love you and this little lady will grow to love you too even if it is only through memories.......I'll never stop telling the stories. And Sunday is Grandparents day so go out and enjoy yourselves....you were the best.

All our love,
Melissa and baby girl Close to-be