Ireland brief

Ireland was beautiful and very, very friendly.  

Ireland is one of the places that is hard to describe. By looking at the Paris photos you can clearly see the amazing food and wine, you can sort of get a feel for the amazing restaurants and scenery and the amazing sites such as the Eiffel tower and how one might feel when you first lay your eyes on such a thing. With Ireland,  the pictures don't show you the endless amounts of greenery and the trees and the sheep that are all the way up the mountaintop and all of the lakes and how pouring a Guinness in Ireland is an art and that Irish music- I never thought I would love listening to an Irish band as much as I did. I even bought a cd. And had the singer signed it. It was really upbeat and everyone basically claps their hands and cheers and I love the accordion and violin. Such beautiful sounds. We were all smiles listening to the  music with drink in hand and fun people around us. 

I don't want to stop talking about this trip as it's me facing reality that the trip is over! 

I wanted to come home to see Elle of course- we missed her sooooo much. In fact, we were ready to come home but everything stayed the same while gone. Gramps has forever changed into a new phase of his life, my Parents didn't come back and my brother is still in a facility and I have no idea how he's doing, the lake house has to be shut down, and the Holidays are approaching and I am sad yet excited to spend Elle's first Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas together as a family and with the family I do have. 

My Aunt and I were chatting today. When, why and how does this get better we said. It's always something. She was at the hospital for a procedure and it happened to be where my Mother died. Then her nurse read her emergency contact info and it was my Mother, they said her name and read her address. My Aunt burst into tears. This kind of stuff will continue to come up. 

They were everything to so many people and some of us just simply can't let it go. I am not sure who could. I think of my friends, other relatives, and sometimes even co-workers and I think for the most part, I am doing okay, what should I expect? I have really, really good days but then those bad days come and they suck. They suck the life right out of  you, but only for a few moments. I catch my breathe, say cheese and smile for the camera.

Wasn't this post suppose to be all about Ireland? yeah, well I tend to go off the beaten path at times....so typical of me. 

Little Elle Bell had a great day today at her first official week back. Yesterday we had an interesting end to our weekend with vomiting.....she caught a bug that had been going around. She was funny though. She would throw up, smile and go on with her task. Babies are funny like that- so resilient. (is that spelled right? ha..)