labor day

I'm not going to lie, it's not getting ANY easier to go to the lake. "Why would it Melissa?", I ask myself.  They would love more than anything to be spending these weekends up there with us. I can only imagine what joy and smiles it would bring to my parents to have their grandchildren up there. Aydan and Elle. Their friends would stop by....Dad would feel proud. It's just not the same. It's not as fun or as happy. It's so quiet as I have said since they have been missing. They were too young and it just wasn't time, we really still needed them very much so. 

I do love bringing Elle up there. And it's really neat to see Aydan catching fish by the dock, just like my brother used to do. It's a great place and we'll do our best to continue making memories up there. We missed Ted as he was on his annual Dad hiking trip weekend. It was a quiet, quick trip up but the weather was beautiful and we enjoyed seeing Grandpa. I spent a few nights with my Mother-in-law as well. It was quiet. No one was really around, which makes it even harder to be home. But we enjoyed some wine, a few tears, and some fun with Elle Bell.... 

I got to quickly see my friends Melissa and Nick last night since they were back in MI for the weekend. 

I am tired today and back in Cincinnati and unfortunately Elle spiked a fever today. 

Wondering what I will do about work tomorrow. Ugh........

Lots of love, 

Melissa